Duality

I finally realized why I like "Smallville" as much as I do, even though the writing is bad and the acting is mediocre at best. I like it because thwart writers try to address some of the same issues that I try to sort out in my head. From relationships to fighting evil, the plot devices of the show have many times mirrored my hopes, fears, and worries.
The season finale dealt with the duality of mankind, another issue I continuously try to deal with in my own head. In the finale, Clark tries to save the human side to Doomsday without killing Doomsday. Green Arrow and other superheroes try to convince Clark that killing Doomsday is the best solution. But Clark, as per the Superman myths, will not kill anyone. (He's such a boyscout.) In the end, Clark succeeds in separating the man from the beast and then burying the beast for what we think will be forever. However, the human side to Doomsday, a persona named Davis Bloom, turns out to be a monster himself. He kills Jimmy Olson and almost kills Clark's best friend, Chloe. Discovering that humans have the ability to be monsters, and that it was his humanity that kept him from doing what needed to be done, Clark decides that he needs to embrace the hero within and let go of the human emotions he carries.
I've felt the same way on hundreds of times. I have felt stifled in my work and in my life by the continuous desire to be honest, loyal, truthful... Idealist. I remember getting bullied in middle school to no end because I turned in a bully who caused lots of damage to the science room in a prank. I got in trouble at work when I confessed to making a mistake, although I corrected it and no one got hurt. And there have been times when I wouldn't raise my fists to defend myself, looking like (and being branded as a wimp.
Had I let go of my human feelings of honesty, integrity, and compassion, things could have been different. I might have been the bully and not the wimp. My status among my peers would have been higher... All sorts of "good" things would have happened. But at what cost?
And that is surely what will be revealed in the next season of "Smallville". What will be the cost of Clark Kent doing "what needs to be done"? As for me, I'm not there, and I don't want to be there. I'd rather be human than something less... Or something more.